I actually considered going back through all of my posts for the past 2+ years to see how many times I have talked, vented and cried through posts about Colin's feeding difficulties. Our biggest struggle to date is the fact that Colin doesn't have much of an appetite, he only eats limited foods (so limited I can count them on one hand), and that we haven't made any progress for a long time.
Chris and I have tried lots of avenues in order to overcome this challenge. We have read books, articles, tried tips from those experienced and not, taken Colin to 2 different feeding clinics, used a forceful feeding method, experimented with different textures, forced food, stepped back from methods, put Colin in front of the TV when eating, gone regularly to the feeding clinic while we are all evaluated, hid food in other foods, and on and on and on...
As Colin's personality and toddler-esque behaviors have emerged, the struggles have become more and more challenging. Chris and I come from families who have eaten many meals together around the dinner table and we have always done the same with Colin and now Kailey. However, there are nights where we want to pull our hair out (like tonight) where we sit there as Colin throws pieces on the floor, yells no, turns his head refuses to eat or drink because we just don't feel like fighting it anymore.
I don't think we ever expected to be spoon feeding 2 kids at the same time that are 2 years apart. Chris took Colin to the latest feeding appointment today and I think we are finally at the point that we are just going to back off for awhile. We don't leave there with a sense of relief or direction (except last visit for me because I thought I was headed somewhere) and also feel like things can't get much worse.
This challenge is really tough to deal with. We have literally been at this for over a year now (the feeding part) and it's not getting any easier. At. all.
...but we CAN say it's tiring and exhausting. We will keep trudging along, but hope that one of these days we can turn over a new leaf.
What we want? The simple pleasure of having our toddler feed himself , without a fight, and something more than what I can count on one hand.