Ok, I'll admit it, I have been having a bit of a rough week this week when it comes to Colin and our challenges. I've been avoiding posting about it because I didn't want it to sound like I'm complaining, but the more I hold on to it, the more overwhelming it is. Just like purging your house of the "crap" you don't need, I need to purge myself of these feelings and get myself back on track.
You know what it is? I think we are just in a lull right now of developmental milestones with Colin. We had so many great things happening all at once and while he still does great things on a daily basis, the struggles and challenges are just glaring right at me.
Biggest struggle #1 (always has been and still is...): feeding. Yes, he still continues to come a long way from the days of not wanting any table food at all. However, our variety of things he likes seems to be shrinking and it's very challenging to bring anything new near his face. He is tightlipped to most things, still wants nothing to do with anything with a hard (0r semi-hard) texture (except for the chocolate chips in his mint ice cream which I am convinced he just swallows whole anyway), won't drink anything but dairy at this point (which isn't very good on a kid who has had a little bit of a stomach thing this week), will only self-feed pancakes, still doesn't seem to be chewing (just mushing and swallowing), and every meal is just hard for some reason or other.
The rest of the challenges are just things that I let bring me down, although I know he will eventually do them when he is ready. I know that. I've been there already and seen it happen.
Lots of things have been on my mind lately, are we doing enough, what should we do about the feeding, what if..., what if... and those thoughts can be consuming.
So I needed to do the next best thing....let it out. There, I said it. It's been a rough week and yes , I have struggled with some things. I know Colin will do these things when the time is right. I am proud of what he has accomplished so far. I am thankful for Colin's health, his progress, and his neverending love...
So I'll be back on track very shortly. Step #1 was letting it out (which feels better already). Step #2 is to continue to do what I do best, love my little boy. And step #3...just be happy and grateful for how far we have come.
Thanks for listening :)